What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.
I think I need to go back to working five days a week. I so enjoy this day though. Stupid money.
Seattle/Broken Social Scene seems unlikely. So sad. At least they are Canadian and prolific so chances are I will have another opportunity. I think I am the only person ever not to have seen them. Waaaahhh.
I love the dueling bands in this video.
This photo makes me laugh.

I love him, like I wish I grew up in the 70s and he was my dad in a wholesome way?
We’ll have to muddle through somehow.
Merry Christmas everyone. Off to Vancouver for a couple days.





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We might be getting another dog! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing else can make me so excited like a schoolgirl! Except… well nevermind. So I realize I already have a dog, but somehow it doesn’t seem like it. I dunno, she’s not my dog… and she is pretty challenging! So, maybe getting a second dog isn’t the best idea, but I am actually hoping it will help her a lot, since her issues mostly involve a lack of socialization. Now I have to make sure she’s up to snuff, a good enough influence to play the mom/big sister role! We might end up thinking better of it but until then I will burst with glee at the prospect. It’s all my boyfriend’s fault for bringing it up!
The one thing I don’t understand is how he can say he hates pomeranians. My heart is not set or anything, but it’s what I pictured… :D

I REALLY resent the watermark on this one!
What I REALLY want though is a pomchi!

A normal chihuahua would be great too
Breeds I would also like to own:
I KNOW I AM FORGETTING SOME!
Can you tell I spent years looking longingly at dog breed books as opposed to petting actual dogs?
MY TIME HAS COME. MUAHAHAHA
In reality I always wanted a big dog, but now I finally realize big dogs can’t sit on your lap very well!
This is an old picture Julie found of me! I look back on the Christmas Store as good times. Who knew?
Rat in a cage
The pointless struggle of life appears especially absurd these days, as happens to me periodically. Reading Walden while bored at work is probably not the best way to increase job satisfaction.
“The twelve labors of Hercules were trifling in comparison with those which my neighbors have undertaken; for they were only twelve, and had an end; but I could never see that these men slew or captured any monster or finished any labor…
But men labor under a mistake. The better part of the man is soon plowed into the soil for compost. By a seeming fate, commonly called necessity, they are employed, as it says in an old book, laying up treasures which moth and rust will corrupt and thieves break through and steal. It is a fool’s life, as they will find when they get to the end of it, if not before…
Public opinion is a weak tyrant compared with our own private opinion. What a man thinks of himself, that it is which determines, or rather indicates, his fate….
The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation…
Age is no better, hardly so well, qualified for an instructor as youth, for it has not profited so much as it has lost. One may almost doubt if the wisest man has learned anything of absolute value by living. Practically, the old have no very important advice to give the young, their own experience has been so partial, and their lives have been such miserable failures, for private reasons, as they must believe; and it may be that they have some faith left which belies that experience, and they are only less young than they were. I have lived some thirty years on this planet, and I have yet to hear the first syllable of valuable or even earnest advice from my seniors. They have told me nothing, and probably cannot tell me anything to the purpose. Here is life, an experiment to a great extent untried by me; but it does not avail me that they have tried it. If I have any experience which I think valuable, I am sure to reflect that this my Mentors said nothing about.
The greater part of what my neighbors call good I believe in my soul to be bad, and if I repent of anything, it is very likely to be my good behavior. What demon possessed me that I behaved so well? You may say the wisest thing you can, old man- you who have lived seventy years, not without honor of a kind- I hear an irresistible voice which invites me away from all that.”
I am an unimportant dog fact expert.
My boss is officially freaked out because on the radio station we listen to at 4.15 every day they have this ‘retro quiz’ or something, they are always pretty easy. This week they have been about dogs, and I have gotten every one of them… who doesn’t know that the golden retriver owned by the Tanners is Comet?
Work stress.
I am going to be shitting my pants this weekend. You see, I took a day off earlier this week. This day happened to be the day payroll must be run. With all my absences lately, I kind of just assumed the accountant was on top of it, although there is no reason he really should be, since I didn’t mention it to him. So I processed payroll the day I got back but it said ‘Off schedule deposits may not arrive in accounts on selected payment date.’ My head is going to be on a fucking stake on Monday if people don’t get paid! I imagine everything will go just fine, they just state that as a disclaimer in case they are really behind or something… but that’s just the kind of thing I obsessively worry about. Now I have to stay up till midnight on Sunday to verify! To be prepared for just how much people may hate me on Monday morning!


I realized have a thing for Russian. It is mysterious and creepy to me.


Old pictures.
I used to be obsessed with Silent Garfield; I think I need to devote an entire other post to my favourite ones. Garfield minus Garfield is good too.




Can you tell I am going through one of my old photobucket accounts?
It’s official:
I am a dork.
[My name is Hyzenthlay]
I can’t believe how much fun I am having playing! I would probably be enjoying it less and feeling more frustrated if I wasn’t playing with an experienced player sitting beside me…. I can’t wait till I get to train wild animals and stuff! Sweetness. I love how I am so late on trends.
Fleet Foxes is next week! I am relieved. I really just want to stay in tonight. Last night, hanging out with the ex, seeing my cat, being in my old condo, was actually relieving too. It is good to see that life goes on without me… my ex is still a cool guy, my condo still exists, my cat is still fat. Life flows on within you and without you.
Life is a funny thing. Learning to live it is kind of fun sometimes. Except for work… uggghhhhhhhh. Learning to make work a non-soul-sucking aspect of my life is a very important lesson for me to learn one of these days.
Is it time for me to act mature?
I can’t stop feeling dizzy today. Couldn’t go to work because every time I would even roll over this morning the room started spinning, I was overwhelmed with the feeling of falling. Very strange. Still definitely lingering well into the afternoon… I think I may have listeria.
Must start feeling better for Mogwai tonight. I can’t pretend to know this band well but I definitely like what I have heard. We ran out of pot; what kind of poetic justice is that? Hopefully impending falafels will perk me up… but wtf is a falafel?
Yes, the ocean is beautiful, it also smells like sea-stink.
Pre-coned Roxy. So full of life.
Desk forest. Yes I am pretty mature for my age.
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